Thursday, September 16, 2010

Thankful Thursday

Well I wish I could be thankful for a BFP this week, but I have to settle for a new cycle starting and getting the chance to try again. The last cycle I had such high expectations, and it was hard to be let down. But today is a new day!! I was looking at my chart this morning and if I ovulate around the time I usually do, I would be testing (hopefully) right around Brian's birthday! How great would that present be?!?!? Great, now my hopes are starting up again, lol. I guess time will tell, huh?!

I am LOVING this time of year. Its getting cooler out, the central air is turned off, windows opened, and I get to watch my Brewers, Badgers, and Packers!!!! I have noticed that even some of the leaves are starting to change already. This is my favorite time of year, by far. Brian and I will be celebrating our 2nd anniversary on the 27th! I know we had our MN trip planned as part of our anniversary gift to each other, but I think I might still have to plan something special for us. We have been through SO much in two years, and almost didn't make it to where we are today. I am thankful each and every day that he is with me! I am a very lucky woman!!!!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Obviously Not One of My Strong Points....

This cycle has been the hardest for me to wait for either AF or a BFP. It didn't help when right before I had my HSG performed, the radiology assistant tells me that, "not all the time, but sometimes, women get pregnant right after this." Gee thanks. My chart is so weird this time. I have never had such consistant temps for so many days in a row in my 2ww. Plus, with having a difficult time sleeping though the night around my O time, I am not sure when I really ovulated. With this cycle being our first TRUE cycle starting since our loss in May, it is making it even harder. I am so ready to know what is going on and where to go from here. In the meantime, I will try to relax and be more PATIENT.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Thankful Thursday

So I am so excited for this week to be over. Brian and I planned a weekend away to MN a couple of months ago for labor Day weekend. When we found out about the ectopic, my OB told us 3 months. So we decided that we wanted to plan a vacation for the two of us to celebrate that, and to just relax. We have been through SO much the last two years and really need this time to reconnect and remind us how mush in love we really are. Never in my worst nightmares had I thought after two years of marriage and TTC that we would be here. We almost lost each other a year ago. I am truly grateful to still have him by my side today! I love our life together! But to have our losses occur and to change our relationship so much in such a short amount of time was never a thought in my mind. I had hoped that I would O around our vacation time, and I just missed it. By my chart, it looks like I have already. So now we can relax and just enjoy ourselves in MN :-) Stay tuned in a couple of weeks for hopefully good news!!!! *fingers crossed*

I had a difficult day at work yesterday. For those who read this and don't know, I work as a dietary manager at a nursing home. I have worked in long-term health care since I was 16. There are so many rewards to this job! Making people laugh, smile, and hearing stories about their past (true or otherwise), makes our older generation truly fascinating. But with all the positive, there is one major drawback; losing those you care about. They may not be related to me, but in my heart, they are family. Sometimes myself and my co-workers are the only people our residents see on a daily basis. Even holidays, there are those with no blood relatives around. Yesterday we lost an angel. She was truly an amazing woman. And I owe her a huge thanks for reminding me not to take anything for granted. We have today and this moment. Nothing beyond that is promised! I will miss her very much and hope she is at peace now.