Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Well, I Knew it Had to Happen Sometime....

My first PP AF has begun. And let me just say... BOOOOOO, I did NOT miss this at all. I knew this day was coming, especially since I am on BCP and was on the last color of pills. But still. I think it's a realization that my pregnancy/post partum is officially over. A sad day today. But on the bright side, it's the last day of February, I have a three day weekend coming up, and my birthday is Sunday! The big 28 :-) And approx 5 months until Brian and I start trying for a sibling for Noah. I love motherhood and would not change it for the world! The sleepless nights, puke, poop, and all the worry is all worth it. Ok, onto work.... have a great Leap Day everyone!!!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Letter to Noah - 3 Months

To my sweet little boy,

How can you be 3 months old already? Seems like just yesterday we brought you home, scared and exhausted! Even though there are still fears today, we are much more at ease about parenting now, I think...

You rolled over for the first time on 1-27-12 while playing on your activity mat. You are NOT a fan of tummy time and while getting frustrated, you somehow worked yourself up away you went. I think it surprised you as much as it did me! Daddy was so proud of you. Of course, you haven't done it since. You only spend a few minutes on your tummy before throwing a fit!

You have been STTN for about a month now, and we couldn't be happier! The first night you did it, I was shocked and figured it was just a fluke. But ever since then, you haven't looked back. It's been GREAT! Although, you are not the greatest napper during the day, and tend to fight sleep bad.

You have recently found your hands. You love to try and get your whole fist in your mouth to chew on....sometimes both at once. And when you can't do it, you get frustrated! It's actually kind of cute :-)

Things we love:
Still love being on your changing table. We talk, play with feet, and mommy gets you to smile A LOT! I am not sure what it is about your changing table you like so much, but every time I lay you down, I smile knowing your adorable grin and dimples are just seconds away! And you still like to be walked around the house so you can check out everything on the walls. Good thing Grandma has lots to look at! Still sleep in the RnP, love your seahorse toy, and being swaddled.

Things we hate:
You are still not a fan of taking a bath, although its getting a little better. When we burp you, you hate sitting down. Whoever is burping you better be walking around! Otherwise you cry too much and then don't burp. You don't like tummy time (still working on this one).

Noah, I have done a lot of good and bad things in my life. But none of that matters when I think back to the day I brought you into this world. You are my life. I am so proud to be your mommy, and will do everything I can to make you proud of me. I love you peanut!

Love always and forever,

Monday, February 6, 2012

A First in Over 3 Years...

Yep, it's been over three years since Brian and I started TTC... and I took my first BCP last night since then! It's hard to believe it's been so long ago. And was even harder to swallow that tiny little pill. Brian and I have already been talking about TTC#2 and when we would like to start. I am thinking this fall I will stop the pills and just see what happens. I think at first, I will be pretty laid back about it. But if it takes longer than a few months, I will start to be more apt to use what worked for getting pregnant with Noah. Within less than two months of starting Metformin and acupuncture, I was pregnant last year. I am hoping my body won't need that the second time around.

The weird part is, I MISS being pregnant! I remember telling my mom after Noah was born this very same thing and she just said that's because I have to share him now. It really didn't have anything to do with that. I missed feeling him move inside of me, making me smile each time I saw my belly move too. Or using the doppler to hear his little heart beating. It was the most magical experience of my life. And I can't wait to feel that way again!

I am little nervous about starting up the pill again. I never really had a negative reaction to it before, but I know after a baby, the body can do some freaky things when it comes to hormones. So we shall see. Let the countdown begin.... T-6 months to kicking the pill and starting to TTC#2!!!!