Stylish Blogger Award

Two of my fellow blogger friends have nominated me for this award. I am truly touched and am so glad that people actually take the time to read my ranting and complaining. You are some brave souls, lol. Here are the Seven Random Things about me....

1.) My biggest fear is not spiders, or flying, or even heights (though I hate this)..... its failure. I guess I always have held myself to a high standard. Not because my family or how I grew up. I just always felt that if something is worth doing, then it's worth doing to your best ability. And I think that's why my TTC road has been so tough on me. I have no control over it.

2.)  I have never been drunk. I have been to the point of being buzzed and a little tipsy, but never wasted. I think that's because I am not one to lose control, especially over my actions and words.

3.) I was raised most of my life by a single mom. They divorced when I was 6, and my dad was not a huge role-player in my life. He lived within 25 miles of me most of my life, but he never saw a chorus concert, school play, prom, or graduation. My mom is the strongest person I have ever known. She is the reason I am who I am today!

4.) I have worked in long-term care for over 10 years. I started as a dishwasher at a nursing home. Worked my way up to a cook, went to technical college, and am now a dietary manager.

5.) I can be stubborn. When I get mad, I just want to be left alone. My husband is still learning that about me. He's more of the "let's talk it out" kind of guy. Doesn't always work the best during arguments.

6.) Brian and I looked at over 40 houses before we found the one we bought. We have very different "must-haves" when it came to looking for our house. So it took a very long time to find one that suited both of our needs.

7.) I have never been out of the United States. I have barely traveled to other states. I want to travel to Ireland in my lifetime!

Thank you to the ladies that nominated me. I will do my best to return the favor to 7 other awesome bloggers.

Chronicles of a Supermom
dear diary, it's me, Katy
Life after Aidan Christopher
Love and Lattes
Malcolm Baby
My Angel Aurora Rose
Winter Baby

Will 3rd Time Be the Charm?!?!

I guess only time will tell on that question. O has been confirmed and now the wait starts. Things done differently this time are: increase dose of Clomid, preseed again, Mucinex to help CM since the higher dose seemed to dry things up, and pineapple core after O. There is a website called Cheri22.com where your fortune can be read (entertainment only) and can be told things about future children. I decided to try it, since hey, its only $10! I received my reading Friday. Per Cheri22, I will have a baby girl, and she sees FEB, which could mean birth month, conceive month, or find out month! Ironically, my test date for this cycle per FF is Feb 2nd! It would be awesome if she was "right." The waiting part stinks, but I have an easier time with it knowing I O'd and have the chance of getting KU. If this doesn't work, then its off to the OB to discuss Metformin and Femara. And since I won't get in to see her until the next cycle were to start, I am assuming the next cycle would be unmedicated.

And on a happy side note, the Packers won the NFC Championship today and are headed to the Super Bowl!

Second Round a Bust

Well, as you can tell from the title, Clomid did not work this cycle..... well I O'd, just not resulting in a pregnancy. I called my OB this morning and talked about the plan ahead. Her first comment is that she only does Clomid for up to THREE cycles.... which shocked me. Most of the ladies I read about on the bump are on it for 4-5-6 months..... So she decided to up my dose from 50mg to 100mg this time around. If I do not get KU, then I am to make an appt to discuss whats next. She mentioned two medications that could work; Metformin and Femara. I have seen ladies charts with both of these meds listed. It gives me hope that if the Clomid does not work, there might still be something that will help. Of course, her main focus is still for me to continue to lose weight. I am sitting at 11 lbs lost, since adding 2 over the holidays. So its back to the strict diet. I am also looking into buying the Zumba Fitness for the Wii. I heard its really good!!! So we shall see what happens. Not the way I wanted to start 2011, but hoping for the best!

Yesterday would have been my due date with Angel #2. Mommy loves you baby!!!

Watch out....

The side effects from Clomid is making me a not-so-nice person at times! I have had 1 day each cycle so far where I am just a mess. I cry for NO reason, am very snapping at others, and just want to give up on this whole TTC stuff. Even my co-workers get worried about me when I am like this. I am usually a very smiley, bubbly person, and dread this mood change. I feel so bad for those around me, but I can't control how I feel.

I am waiting to O right now, and getting anxious. I just want to see a +opk and a nice temp shift. Then I know that I have done what I can for this cycle and just hope that it ends with a BFP!

Christmas is right around the corner. I am so overly grateful for my wonderful husband, family, and friends! I wouldn't have made it this far without each person that is in my life. I am truly blessed! Happy Holidays!!!

Onto the Next Cycle

Well Clomid did its job, but without a BFP ending this time. I am grateful it worked so well and am hopeful for the next cycle! I had a mini-meltdown last week. Two years ago at Christmas time, Brian and I got to announce for the first time that we were expecting. Little did we know that the baby was already gone. Its amazing how one day can change your life forever. So I had a "dream" of being able to do the same this Christmas. But that will have to wait for another time. I am scared that the Clomid worked this time, but may not the next. Or what if it I don't get KU on it at all, and have to talk IUIs or IVF. We can't afford that. Ugg, the stress of TTC.

For now, I am grateful for my husband, family, and friends! And on a much happier note, I am officially down 10.6 lbs!!!! Take that, OB! I can't wait to go in to see her again and show her how much I have lost so far. Have a great day!

It Worked!!!!

The Clomid has done it's job! I have gotten +opks for the past three days now! And today is only CD14 :-) I am skeptical on getting pregnant on the first try with this medicine, but anything could happen, right? Only time will tell now.

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and I have so much to be thankful for! I have a wonderful husband whom I am so grateful for each and every day I wake up next to him. I have a supportive circle of family and friends that I don't know what I'd do without. And I cannot forget my Bump friends. The women of this site are truly amazing and inspire me to keep going. I have a few really CLOSE friendships that have come from this board and I am very thankful for them in my life. I hope someday I get to meet them in person, and with our babies as well!!! If I don't get to writing before Thursday, have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!!

A New Start

Well after a 55 day cycle, Provera has brought on AF! So very thankful to see red today!!! I haven't seen AF since Sept 14th! Hopefully with the help of Clomid, this cycle will be MUCH shorter. Bring on...

Brian and I had such a great time at the Packers vs Cowboys game last night. Sad its the last game of the season for us, but I guess its ok since the games are only going to get colder and colder!!!

I am happy to report that I have lost 5.2 lbs so far!!! And eating better has really made me feel better. Cutting the carbs has not been easy, but I am doing alright. I still allow bread/potatoes once in a while, but very limited. And my clothes are actually starting to feel loose. It is such a great feeling to know I am getting healthier. I think Brian is even losing a few lbs himself, even though he doesn't always like the diet.