Thankful Thursday

Well I wish I could be thankful for a BFP this week, but I have to settle for a new cycle starting and getting the chance to try again. The last cycle I had such high expectations, and it was hard to be let down. But today is a new day!! I was looking at my chart this morning and if I ovulate around the time I usually do, I would be testing (hopefully) right around Brian's birthday! How great would that present be?!?!? Great, now my hopes are starting up again, lol. I guess time will tell, huh?!

I am LOVING this time of year. Its getting cooler out, the central air is turned off, windows opened, and I get to watch my Brewers, Badgers, and Packers!!!! I have noticed that even some of the leaves are starting to change already. This is my favorite time of year, by far. Brian and I will be celebrating our 2nd anniversary on the 27th! I know we had our MN trip planned as part of our anniversary gift to each other, but I think I might still have to plan something special for us. We have been through SO much in two years, and almost didn't make it to where we are today. I am thankful each and every day that he is with me! I am a very lucky woman!!!!

Obviously Not One of My Strong Points....

This cycle has been the hardest for me to wait for either AF or a BFP. It didn't help when right before I had my HSG performed, the radiology assistant tells me that, "not all the time, but sometimes, women get pregnant right after this." Gee thanks. My chart is so weird this time. I have never had such consistant temps for so many days in a row in my 2ww. Plus, with having a difficult time sleeping though the night around my O time, I am not sure when I really ovulated. With this cycle being our first TRUE cycle starting since our loss in May, it is making it even harder. I am so ready to know what is going on and where to go from here. In the meantime, I will try to relax and be more PATIENT.

Thankful Thursday

So I am so excited for this week to be over. Brian and I planned a weekend away to MN a couple of months ago for labor Day weekend. When we found out about the ectopic, my OB told us 3 months. So we decided that we wanted to plan a vacation for the two of us to celebrate that, and to just relax. We have been through SO much the last two years and really need this time to reconnect and remind us how mush in love we really are. Never in my worst nightmares had I thought after two years of marriage and TTC that we would be here. We almost lost each other a year ago. I am truly grateful to still have him by my side today! I love our life together! But to have our losses occur and to change our relationship so much in such a short amount of time was never a thought in my mind. I had hoped that I would O around our vacation time, and I just missed it. By my chart, it looks like I have already. So now we can relax and just enjoy ourselves in MN :-) Stay tuned in a couple of weeks for hopefully good news!!!! *fingers crossed*

I had a difficult day at work yesterday. For those who read this and don't know, I work as a dietary manager at a nursing home. I have worked in long-term health care since I was 16. There are so many rewards to this job! Making people laugh, smile, and hearing stories about their past (true or otherwise), makes our older generation truly fascinating. But with all the positive, there is one major drawback; losing those you care about. They may not be related to me, but in my heart, they are family. Sometimes myself and my co-workers are the only people our residents see on a daily basis. Even holidays, there are those with no blood relatives around. Yesterday we lost an angel. She was truly an amazing woman. And I owe her a huge thanks for reminding me not to take anything for granted. We have today and this moment. Nothing beyond that is promised! I will miss her very much and hope she is at peace now.

An Exciting Week.....

I want to congratulate two of my dear Bump friends that were blessed with their BFPs this week!!! Kristen and Leah, you both deserve this so much. I couldn't be more excited for you both!!!! And I am truly thankful to be apart of this journey with you. I wish you both the best of luck with your pregnancies and hope everything goes smoothly!!!

With my HSG coming back normal, Brian and I are ready to start trying again. I am hoping that I can ovulate A LOT sooner this cycle than the last, but we shall see. So far, -opks. We are going to MN to Mall of America next weekend through Labor Day, and cannot wait :-) Would sure be nice to O around then and have a "souvenir" to remember our vacation by... lol. I am just glad we are back in the game again. Waiting was so difficult and frustrating!

Have a safe weekend!!!

HSG Results :-)

I just got home from my HSG appt. GREAT NEWS... all is clear! So we have the green light to start trying again! I couldn't be happier. The test itself didn't take long, but the pain and cramping was intense for the short amount of time. So thankful for it to be over now, and we can finally move forward! Here's to our 2011 baby!!!!

Ready to Try Again...

Well, AF finally arrived on Friday after a LONG cycle! I called my OB right away in the morning and my HSG is scheduled for August 23rd. If everything is in good, we are in the clear to start trying again. If not, then we will deal with it. I am hoping that there are no blockages or damage from the ectopic to my tubes. Brian is taking the day off to go with me and I think my mom is coming as well. Its so great to have such a wonderful support system. I am truly blessed!!! The good part about this test is at least the results are quick. We should know shortly after the procedure whats going on. I finally feel like we can completely move forward soon, and it's so refreshing! We are both ready and hoping for a miracle to bless our lives soon!

Thankful Thursday!!

So this was a very exciting day for me. I have been so down and frustrated with my body for two major reasons. One, because I got weighed at the OB office a couple of weeks ago and I am the heaviest I have ever been. I hate my picture taken and get so discouraged seeing myself in photos. I need to lose this weight! And second, because my body seems to be stalled on the ovulation front. I have been using ovulation tests for weeks now and just when I think its starting to get close and they are dark, then it gets light again. My temps have been ALL over the place, which is not the norm for me neither. So I called my OB on Monday to see if she could give me medication to help this cycle along since after AF gets here, I am scheduling my HSG and hopefully if all is clear, to start trying again. She agreed to let me get something if I hadn't gotten my period by the weekend and if I take a HPT and its negative. Well I already know I am not pregnant! I haven't even O'd yet!!! But today was a good day....

YAY, a positive OPK finally!!!

I am going to call my OB tomorrow and let her know about this. I think I will see what happens with my temps over the weekend. Hopefully my body isn't faking me out!! I would love not to need the Provera :-) Now just to work on the weight loss....